This needs to stop!
I was out over a recent weekend and a person out running looked at me and when I saw them they just kept their eyes locked on mine. This was a look of pure hate as if I was steeling food from their baby kind of look. This did not look to be a tourist or some rough rural guy but a young woman. This is what it is and is just an example that trans existence manifests a disgusting hate in people.
As I am exposed to more news over the past few days it is unsettling.
While I could easily add another hundred plus links, I know how unproductive that is.
I could spout all manner of thoughts on why this might be happening but I do not see this doing much to help change anthing. The simple fact that it is happening and not only being allowed but in many ways encouraged is the most deploreable thing someone who claims to be a person could do, it is just pure evil and incarnation of a bag full of devils and demons being sold as something else entirely. Snake oil does not apply, as this is potent poison sold as a cure. A cure for what is beyond me.
In search of cherry blossoms
After the recent photo walk realizing how soon the cherry blossoms could be out I went on a solo walk. Taking a few others while out made for a calm morning with clear skies. Add in a coffee and I found myself in a meditative or perhaps a calmly contemplative state.
Beautiful day for a photo walk
I joined a photo walk and the golden California sun showed up as well for some warmth in the cool breeze with a great group.
In America, unless you are a cis white male you have an understanding of what discrimination is on a deeper than cursory level. While some people and demographics are impacted more than others, if you are one that knows this and do not have solidarity with all of the others who know, I have a grand level of concern for you as a morally blind, misguided or corrupt individual.
Discrimination among and against others who have felt your pain in some real way is not going to help you or anyone else.
Fighting discrimination and employing these tactics makes you the same as those you are opposing, becoming your own oppressor.
The song by Garbage “Beloved Freak” came up and I need to hear this. While there are many songs by them that have lyrics and a sound that resonate with me, this is just what today was best to hear early on.
First a link to the Garbage YouTube video on this.
I did not see an official video, but here is one I quickly located.
Why not a couple photos?
What it means for me
For me, as I can only really speak for myself.
Being trans is not about what I look like, though there are many occasions I do want to look the best I can.
Every detail of my body or my appearance is not the or a goal.
What it is most importantly is how I am perceived and treated.
There is a social component to the way I look I am well aware of this, but it is a means not a top priority.
The way I interact and others do so with me is the real need I have, the rest falls behind this.
Photo Walk – early in March
I was happy to go for a photo walk recently with someone who was great company and did not complain once about my nonstop chatter.
This was a pleasant and peaceful walk, aside from my mouth kept saying words and then more of them.
While not a large gallery of images, I am happy as far more significant than a pile of photos was the company and just getting out for a stroll where I happened to take some pictures along the way.
This makes me think, how about you?
I am going to put a few things here before I say anything on my thoughts. Let these sink in just a bit if you can.
Now, please do some searching on research on your own but do remember that 10 minutes, an hour or days of searching does not make one an expert. I do suggest educating yourself and research is not a mute point.
Based on the arguments against Transgender people and drag-queens the case could be made that children should not be allowed in church and the anti-trans laws need to be adopted for the church as well.
The evidence I am able to see and find is overwhelmingly more children are hurt and abused in a church setting than in the presence of a transgender person or drag-queen even if you look at the numbers based on population percentage. This still does not justify a religious attack on anyone.
Don’t throw stones if you live in a glass house.
When has there been a attack by the transgender community in such a fashion on religion beyond people of every gender and orientation not wanting to be forced into religion. Let people be, period.
I could go on but why? Think for yourself and not simply adopt what you are told is truth, not even the so called news should be blindly trusted.
Question everything, but be constructive as you do wherever possible.
Ponder the possibilities part 2
Part 2 of unknown.
Far from good enough
I am taking a risk. This is fully within myself. I am sharing bad selfies.
These are bad not due to anyone else or their thoughts or opinions. If no one other than me sees them this does not change. If others do, still it does not change in that I am not fond of some aspect or the entirety of these.
I am not not have the delusion that I am better or right more often than others. I am flawed just as every human is as I see it this is without exception.
In all my issues, errors, mistakes, etc. A collection of selfies I did some editing to obscure just a bit to not make me cringe quite as much as I do from the original image.
Even as I titled this, I am good enough. I am me and finally I can be alive and have hope for I life I never have had before. I may take some bad selfies but I am here and I am alive and those things that I see are not what I am not happy with. It is how the world around me reacts to them that is sad and depressing. It is as if others cannot live up to what people expect them to and those demands keep happiness at bay, then the attacks others to bring them to that same place of feeling inadequate, but it does not need to be this way. We can decide to be ourselves and be happy but the violence in physical, verbal or legislative form must end. This is not just for transgender people, or people of any specific group but all and everyone.
Find your own happiness and let others do so as well.